black coffee x 2
baby carrots organic
sardines in water
cucumber (1/2 large)
hard boiled egg x 2
It would be nice if every diet and every lifestyle change just stuck with us. I got veered off my CRON plan for the last two/three days, and ended up eating too many cookies/bagels/pastas/processed carbs instead. But, I’m not a quitter, and I’m doing like a bunny and hopping right back on the wagon! Sunday, my husband made home made pizza, and I couldn’t help myself, and I had a few small slices. Then, that turned into more pizza, and then a home made calzone, and then cookies, and then bagels, and unfortunately, it turned into anything and everything, and so I woke up this morning and that was it!
Back on my Calorie Restriction Optimal Nutrition wagon, because that’s exactly where my body, my healthy, my stamina and motivation belong!
Day 1 is always though, so I’m going with it – drinking as much water as possible, and I have the healthiest of foods around ready for intake, to make sure I don’t overthink this, but instead just eat the healthy food available to me. Once Day 1 is over, the cravings stop, and I’m able to eat really healthy foods without too much thought. I want to stick to just eating the raw vegetable and raw fruits, and then eat really lean and clean fish when possible. I will also eat eggs, as they are both super delicious and hard to overeat. I’m going about this in an incredibly clean way which is along the same lines as Whole30, which I also love as a diet and lifestyle plan.
I purchased sardines in water, because my calcium intake was low. I was always falling short on calcium, after putting in all of the foods into the CRON-o-meter, and someone suggested sardines in water! They don’t taste horrible, and it’s a nice change from RAW veggies!
Other than this – I’m going to keep passing on the processed grub, even if it’s just olive oil or coconut oil or salad dressings. Instead, I’m going to eat everything clean, and I’m going to eat to get lean. So far today – I’m doing great. I had two small bananas, two apples (smallish size), I had half a cucumber, grapes, organic baby carrots, mushrooms, and two hard boiled eggs. I had some broccoli, but left most of it, as it was a lot to digest! I’m feeling pretty proud of myself for getting back on the wagon.
As soon as I get home, I’m going to get into my warm, and cozy and comfy clothes, and I’m going to make myself a HOT TEA, and I’m going to RELAX the rest of the night! I’m going to spend time with my kids, and have fun with them, and enjoy them, and I’m not going to overthink anything. I’m just going to stay hydrated, and I’m going to go up to bed around 8pm, so I can read a new paperback that my two neighbors and I are reading together – and whoop whoop – it will have been an incredible healthy, incredibly low cal, wonderful day!!!
Mentally, starting and re-starting diet plans, programs, meal plans – is quite frustrating. I’ve done this over and over and over in my life, and it sucks. But, I would rather keep going and starting over and over again, then quit all together and succumb to a life where I’m overeating, eating unhealthy, where I don’t care how I feel, or don’t prioritize my health.
Food is certainly my addiction, or more accurately processed junk food is my addiction. I wish it wasn’t, but I also am grateful that it’s not heroin, or pills or sex or something else. I’m working each day how to figure out how to do better for myself, how to deal with my stressors by not succumbing to food binges and cravings, but instead – how to eat the right grub, grub that heals my body, versus hurts my body – regardless of what is happening throughout my day.
I wish this were not a lifelong battle. I also believe that it may be. I also know that 10 years ago, it was worse than five years ago. And today, I’m better than I was five years ago. I believe that I’m going to continue to get better and use my desire to eat healthy to combat the food binges and this “disorder” since it’s technically now a disorder.
Either way – it’s a great day so far, and I’m going to keep at it!